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Happy Birthday, Dear the Most Gracious Woman in My Life.

One told me that however grand your money you've built, you'll never
be able to repay even the little thing your mother has sacrificed for
you.

And It's true..

Mama..
You are the woman that i could hang on when my fear came out..
You are the one that i spent my tears on when i broke my hand in fighting..
You are the one that i yell-ed on when i got nothing from the thing i wanted..

Mama, you are always there.
Even when i rejected your decision..
Even when i push hard the door when we fought,
even when i undeniable said "ARGHHHH" to every single thing you
demanded me to do..
you are always there however i was..
you not even fought me back..
you not even slap your hand at my body..
you not even asked me to go out from home..

You just kept silent and went to your room.. you cried..
you kept thinking that you are a failure in my growing up even you ARE NOT..
you cried even i stupidly did nothing to you to stop you crying..

Mama..
for every single tears you spent to grow me up... but i just forget..
for money you've spent for me.. but i just cheat to get more..
for every yell i threw at you..
you just always there..
you just did all that i wanted as if all my commands were yours to do.
you never told me "kid.. i'm tired.."
but you always put a big smile and tell "kid... i will..."

Mama..
I know you've spent many pain to grow me up..
i know you've delayed all your needs only to provide my wanted thingy..
i know you've always tried to give me something even when you didn't
think it suited me..

Mama.. I just want you to know..
You are never Failed..
You are the winner in my Life..
You are my angel..
You are my reason why i am now the real ' i am.."
you are the reason why i always try to stop to dream the biggest thing i want..
it's all just because i love you and i honour you, mama..
I'll from now on try to make you happy , no matter what..
i wont let you fight with your pain..
i wont let anyone tells something bad about you,
and i will never ever give up on my life before i show you "mama..
this is me.. you make me I AM"..

Happy 50th Birthday My Big Big Precious Woman In my Life..

I love you , never less.

Uan
(Edwar Andiko Heri)

What should I ask God for?

I thank God I was given a very wonderful moments in my senior high.
I had bestfriends and we went all along, we laughed together, we joked from one to another, we hated, we cried, and we boom-ed each others..

We always spent days together. We went to Bubu almost everyday. We ate mie ayam and es kelapa, we shared soekarno thingy, we talked politic, we saw porn..

We went hanging out together.. Marked 26 June 2011 as our returning day.. We shared yell together, we hysteria, we hugged...

We went clubbing without a permit, we dressed like we are an adult, they got into but as always, I was prohibited to enter so I had to pay, we shared a pot of alcohol and we drank it without feeling sorry.. And yes, we breathed a smoke from our mouth and made it a laugh.

We always made a promise to catch up, and we ended coming 3hours late, we angry to each others but in the end, we left laughes everyday we met.

We are priority to each other, when we say "temen sma gue" it refers to them.

When we say "besties" it refers to them.

When we say "we missed old school" we mean them.

When we say "they are my family" we can't not to agree that it is them.

We hate a goodbye. We even picked and sent wiena to airport.. We shared cry.. We sang "kamu sangat berarti..istimewa dihati slamanya rasa ini..jika tua nanti kita tlah hidup masing masing, ingatlah hari ini..." But our life doesn't end there.

We continue making a blog, we keep contacting via message in facebook, we talk, we share, we joke..

We introduced our own girl/boyfriend. We tested them, we share laughes and we stop being fren if they are broke up.

I love them..
I love my past even I once regretted.

I might hate being the only guy besides the 8 girls.
I might hate when I should be the one who asked, who be the "tester" when we accross the fast way street, or who be the one who does something.
But I love it. I love them, my family.

I might feeling worry to introduce them to my girlfriend. I am in between. I don't want her to think me silly, or even don't want my friends to make a laugh on my gf.
But they are my priority, whenever my gf disagree and don't like them, it means that she doesn't like me. My friends stand forever, even if it means we have to break up.
That's what i always say (said) to my girlfriend whom now ex(es).

I always love starting a new year with them. Once, we booked a hotel and we drank alcohol, we smoke, and ended up eating nasi goreng while fireflies in the sky.
The other year, we spent new years eve sitting in front of the sea with a hardcore music sang to the fireflies.
Once we slept in a comfy bed, the other day, we slept till the bed broke. Yes.. We slept in 2 single beds for 6 person(s) :)

I never had a bad moment walking with them or hanging out with them.
Maybe someone seeing me weird walking with 8girls. But I don't care what they thinking. All I can care is I am happy with them and I feel happiness with my girls :)

God, I love them. They are my priority, they are my family :)
Please keep us together and make us a legendary family.
I sacrifice everything even if in I have to have a kid, I will do.

Thank you for giving me such a best in my life.
I love my high school, and I love everyday with them :)
They are reason why I smile..
They are place where I could share and got no solution, haha..
They are place where I could hear a bad solution when I'm in confuse :)
They are the ones who know how to treat me and put a smile on me..

I love you my girls, always have always will.

I love you my clan, my foreverness family.

Me and...
Riery,cc,ode,wiena,babat,popi,feron,vera..

Jakarta, 07-12-10

After picnic kebun raya
Anw, indo-thai 2-1 :)
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